this is an experience back when i was 15-17 i think. I knew these bitches yes bitches since im in primary school.
Eventually, they are in the same secondary school (all girls school) with me until im 17.
Thing is, they are not friends. Just bunch of hypocrites + sour puss + utterly inferior . Here is what happened, they need to GANG UP on me to confront me of my sinful did and ofcoz its according to them also.
Back then im an infamous bitch ( according to them) and here is the pathetic why :
PATHETIC WHY LIST
1. i cant enjoy their sense of fashion and they think MNG is god. HELLO MNG IS … forget it. go freaking worship it.
2. coz im fat that is why i cant enjoy their fashion. i need bigger size so i shop in guess instead. that is why im so JEALOUS i cant shop in MNG coz im fat and that i can only shop in zara or guess. that is why im so JEALOUS i cant shop in MNG coz im fat and that i can only shop in zara or guess. that is why im so JEALOUS i cant shop in MNG coz im fat and that i can only shop in zara or guess. that is why im so JEALOUS i cant shop in MNG coz im fat and that i can only shop in zara or guess. that is why im so JEALOUS i cant shop in MNG coz im fat and that i can only shop in zara or guess.
3. I DONT HAVE A BF!!!! SOBS.they should really pity me on this but instead THEY THINK ITS MY FAULT I DONT HAVE A BF!!! and its a sin that i have ALOT guy friends i know from online. So their calculation its ok if u are fucking around with few boyfriends… and ALOT of male friend is wrong its a sin and i should die crucified on the toilet bowl ( no blasphemy intended). I DINT FUCK AROUND WOH!
4. im cheap because i date (hang out) guys that own their own sports car or luxury car, and they (those bitches) are damn cool because they date basketball player that rides bicycle. And the bf wont even buy them a chocolate =(
5. I am very ignorant when it comes to gossips. coz it doesnt benefit me. i rather think of what to buy next. and that to them it is a breach of their code! and what is their code? “WE MUST BE SO FUCKING ALIKE THAT OUR MENSES SHOULD COME TOGETHER AS WELL”that is why im dead wrong, and when i gave negative reaction (as in im not interested) they regard it as MEAN. wah……
6. even the way i ate nasi lemak was a crime. i insist you judge this one. The way i eat nasi lemak is i like mixing everything together as in the sambal rice, anchovies, egg and peanuts are all mixed. so i every bite is perfect ! they said im disgusting. AM I AM I! wtf?! how am i suppose to eat? i dont see the difference between u eat the sambal after the rice or mixing it before going into your mouth. I DONT. it taste the same. NO?
7.according to them.. i tell lies. …..just because i dont show you my boyfriend.. just because i dont really want to show you what i have..i am telling lies….. but you know the best now how far my “lies” went.
8. i talk about future. when they ask me what i wanna do, i said i want to be a lawyer in the future ( i know i know but im finally in my degree right, getting there getting there) and their reaction is..why are you like that? cant you think of what you want to eat later. WAH LAN THIS IS YOUR FUCKING FUTUREÂ YOU ACTUALLY MEANT?!?! you perhaps want to say i misunderstood what they ask but no. they are seriously talking about wat to eat later or which club they wanna visit, which pill they hope to try
9. being smarter can be real headache.
a. i start dancing when i was 4 yrs old. so im good at it due to many years of training. they sign up for dancing class and include my so called cousin (not anymore tho) to join them. and they made a pact that “mei yee(me) cannot know about this” coz they can dance alot better than me and i will cry when i found out. I KID. otherway round ofcoz.
b. they want to learn instrument. i suggest they start with piano. but because ive graduate piano so they dont want to take the same course i went, they take up violin. So sad, right after i finish my piano, i already sign up for violin (extreme sad face for them ofcoz). one day they came to me and tell me dint my violin teacher promote me to do performance for our music studio because they are given chance to perform for our studio? i said no and reason is im tired of it consumes too much time. and their performance is? TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR ..and as if its not bad enough, apparently they did not perform at the end because their teacher put another girl who is 6yrs old to perform with them. they are 16. and they curse their teacher ofcoz. but for me i totally sympathize the teacher. wat other song can a grade 1 perform? and how many 16 yrs old is in grade 1?? tsk tsk..
TOO MANY BUT THIS IS MY CONCLUSION no. 10
they say : foong mei yee, what relationship you had with HOO (sam), he had a gf, how come you both still contact each other constantly? are you being the 3rd party?! you are so cheap!
i need to break this down. Firstly, how the hell you know both of us contact each other constantly? Hoo had a gf and i know and we are always best friend since we knew each other. nothing more nothing less. For us, a girl and a boy, can be friends. Sincere friends that care for each other. Maybe love does exist back then but we are not mature enough to know that is love, that is why we are always best friend until im 19.
FUCKING MOFOS. I THANK GOD I STAND ON MY OWN, BACK MYSELF UP AND DEFENDED MY FRIENDSHIP WITH SAM.
if i were to follow your way of fashion, i am the cheap lala. if i were to show you my boyfriend just to prove i am not telling lies i will probably stab myself now for being so bimbotic, if i were to gossip as much, i will end up just like yo. If i am as inferior, i am not me today.
I still eat nasi lemak my way. I play my piano and violin with dignity because i am passionate to them both. They are not instrument just for the sake of show off. What is the point to do something when you are not passionate about it? This is the reason you dont succeed. because u are not sincere. Proving yourself in the damn wrong way.
lastly, if i were to listen to you that i am wrong to keep sam as my best friend. I will not be married today. I will not have this beautiful daughter that is turning 1 soon. To be happy and grateful and glad… is the best winning i guess.
the monster with her rubber duckey
There is reason why you can talk to everyone but me. What you did will come back to you.
I said that 5 years ago to myself. today i said the same thing. Whatever shit you did to me, ill give it a few years time to let you experience your fucking stupidity. If these bitches are mean, a friend that i thought i used to know is far more… i dont know. I cant even recall why are we friends. if you can do this to a friend you knew for 2 years for friends you known for 2 months, what are you?
My wedding proposal were not anywhere near romantic, miraculously, or fairy tale like. Its just a very modest man pouring his heart out to a lady he deeply loves =]
ill try to recollect what happened that day. I was halfway asleep and sam called. usually we will spend our saturday for movies or rolling chit chatting on the bed. He called me that day and told me he cant spend time with me because he needs to help out in his house for our wedding.
Sam : wifey! sorry ill see you tonight. i have things to do in the house. after work ill be at home k?
i spent whole afternoon rolling on the bed alone, listening to ipod, psp ..man i felt weird not having him on saturday afternoon. Sam called again around evening.
Sam : wifey, dress up abit and ill be picking you up in a min kay?
me : dress up? ohkay..see you muah.
Sam : muah..I LOVE YOU
I tot he’s bringing me somewhere like italianese to compensate the afternoon he did not spent with me. God knows.. he brought me to his house and blindfold me.
Again his family is his fella conspiracy comrades.
settings at the backyard of his house
handmade lanterns
a candle light dinner. Im surrounded by grass, underneath those cloth are stones and rotten woods LOL!!
meal cooked by sam. Black pepper salmon fish, baked potatoes, cheese and corns.
guajisai he stole from his mom’s garden
halfway eating..Sam approached me..took out a ring and kneel on stoney terrain. I was in shocked and felt so terribly “yucky”. Then i laughed hysterically and asked him what hes up to.
Sam : *laughing giggling* erm wifey..see a ring!
me : yes i know. we bought it together u moron.
Sam : tsk! serious k! wifey…can you marry me?
me : what! u already called me wifey long ago woh!
Sam : yala! but not official ma..faster la. marry me la..
me : wtf..this is how you propose ar? i go home lo
Sam : yer dont la!..wifey *watery eyes* ill be good to you, like very very good. loyal..love you and only you, will never ever break any promise and vow i made, will give you all the happiness in the world, as long as i live.. ill give you all i could. so..can you marry me
me : OI! no one propose like that ok. if you ask me can or not, what you expect me to answer ? say cannot? u mad!
Sam : thn how! i dont care la just wear this ring *took my hands try to force in ring*
NOTE : This is a personal post about myself that i think its the 1st time about everything i’ve been through. Its long..and its more like a post for myself =] you can go ahead to read if you want.
Our life in the past month were all fun and spunk. we are planning for alot of fun and travels. We were saving so that when i go Uk, sam could follow along and get a job there. Looks like in the future ill be flying alone to Uk to pursue my studies.
Despite there is so many changes, pending and canceled plans..im glad and feeling overwhelm gratefulness swelling inside me. I do know not how to elaborate more. I admit i thought my life is gonna end by now, to my surprise, its not. in fact.. its the beginning of my life. This incident brew life into my heart that is empty before.
Everyone knew im the only daughter, with wonderful parents. wonderful as in busy earning money than spending time on me. I understand that, money that earns will be funding all my expenses. I cant understand what isit about money that caused my parents do not know me at all. To others, im the lucky one that enter music schools, art classes, dancing classes, endless performances. Fact is, i do not have parents to awaits when my class ended. Usually ill need to sit or stand at one corner until my parents remembers me or finally can let down their job to get me. Therefore, one day i decided that ill forget about the feelings of wanting attentive parents. I decided to graduate in things they want me to, so i could end my misery.
During college, i see the changes in my parents. They started to pay more attention on me. Dating me to dinners and vacation. But im not interested anymore. Ive stop hoping long ago. I do have vacations at younger days and i can say ive been to almost all the island in malaysia, hot spot in malaysia. numerous times on plane but..i do not remember the time i spent with them. coz ill be wondering alone whether you believe or not. so when they kept asking me to join them here and there it makes me wanna loathe. one day..i told my dad :
“you can stop feeling sorry to me now. Perhaps now you realised the responsibility of yours is to undestand me, but ive gave up long before today. I do not want it anymore. Just leave me alone and fund my education”
YES I SAID THOSE COLD AND INHUMANE SPEECH TO MY DAD and till now..i still mean it ( slightly )
The turning point is..when sam came into my life. At first my Grandma and mom thinks he is not good enough to be with me. as in lack of education. There is alot of differences between us. The different profession. But everything that are so different brought us together.
at 14 my family is really falling apart. Sam is there, all along. I do not know how ill go through my days without him. Perhaps there is love back then but we are too young to understand what is love. Sam then found his way and i found mine. We went separated with hollowness. Both of our relationship did not work out.
Sam’s relationship fails terribly and mine is nothing lesser than failure as well. That is the time the fate brought us together. When sam is single, im still engaged in a relationship which i do not know how to end. too many wrong turns i took. Sam is there, showed all his affection and support despite he feels very much for me. I decided to walk away from our “friendship” because i do not want to hurt my then Boyfriend anymore. After not long, i did broke up. Again sam reappear , this time he do not confess anymore, which makes me feel more comfortable and feel free to resume our friendship. Msn, hang on long hours on phone, yum cha, movies, sushi. Most of the time we hang out just the both of us. Scandalously, being his friend, i have free excess to his house and room anytime. After all the twist and turns..i finally nods to his request.
I think when sam finally can announce me as his girlfriend in his house, Sam’s mom told me :
“You do now know how nervous he was before this. He asked me opinion about you. Afraid that he cant cope up with your intelligence and how special u are. And the pressure of you the only child. Im happy you accepted my son who knows not much but he is really serious and love you”
Today when what she says ringing in my ears again…i realised im lucky.
Sam’s family that is becoming my family..is the perfect family for me. I just know. Many will have problems with in laws but its not happening to us. Even when im still sam’s girlfriend, im taken in as apart of the family. Countless invitation to vacations, foods and family outings.
My grandma and mom sees the worth in sam. I think they accepted him after 6 months of relationship. Sam supper with us, shopping with my family, and invited to all family occasions. My cousin rachel told me, We have always been treating him like your husband long ago. I know..my family loves sam as much as i do. Why not? he deserves every bits of it.
Im glad everything that happened happens. My family is now back as one. Never in my life i’ve seen them laughing and smiling so much. My dad now kisses my forehead every night before i sleep. My mom now calls me atleast twice a day, makes me soups, drove here and there to find me goat milks and we have alot to talk about now. We never argued even once till now.
This marriage..has brew life into my empty life
Thank you the one above that let all these wonderful things happening in my life.
