October 31st, 2008 -- Posted in yip yapping |
Music vid from Youtube

Lyrics
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.
[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)
[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
You know when you act like that
I don’t think you realize how it makes me look
or feel
Act like what
Why are you so jealous
It’s not like i’m sleeping with the guy
What
What
I said yo
Why are you so jealous
It aint like I’m sleepin with the girl
But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy
p/s: i sincerely thinks..my man had been a girl.. he’s a boy that girl’d turned into.
October 28th, 2008 -- Posted in Juicy bits of sins, Pregnancy/Baby, emo toto, yip yapping |
Yesterday before i could fall asleep, i was thinking what should i give my kid? Should i be sending them to music school or whatsoever. Then it strucks me.
“you will reckon not, until you become someone’s mother” she tells me that.
I hated her. She sent me to gazillion classes that i do no enjoy. I spent my childhood on tuition classes and not playing sands or barbie ( i do have ps la back then ). I said it strucks me when i thought of my mom. She’ve sent me to so many classes, if i take the same path, will my kid hates me? I went evaluating inside my mind.
I once told her i love see-ing people dancing and she threw me to ballet class at 4. Yes i love dancing, but she do not know i love ballroom dance which im too young to understand. She just send me to ballet class and thinks im happy about it. She did not know i felt miserable until im 8 when im allow to do other modern dance and joining performances.
I like violin and she sent me to piano class also at 4. Again she does not know what i really want. When i told her that i would love to take violin and drop my piano. She said im already halfway thru my piano, i ought to finish it before i can take up violin.
I love drawing comics and she threw me to PAINTING CLASS! wtf! this is the most horrifying experience. OMFG painting, scetching, art theory and history IS FUCKING BORING. Im so reluctant to attend classes back then. Manga and..painting…is so fucking different. I still felt fucked up when it all came back bashing my memories. Finally my mom listens and let me stop, teachers kept telling my mother i have talent i shouldnt be stopping, but really..i dont care about talent. I just hated the whole ordeal. All went on for 6 years!
I said i wanna learn other languages. SHE PUT ME INTO CHINESE CLASS!! ROARSSSSSSSSssss!!! im so fucking talented that my teacher disown me after 2 years. She told my mom. “Mei yee is very smart but she doesnt seems to like this course at all” muahahahah true..we have oral test and “ting xie” which is spelling. When i do oral, ill always peep for pinyin below those words. When i ting xie..i just memorise all the stupid words and usually scores full marks. Pathetically, i do not know what they meant.
All im doing is to make my mom feels that im not wasting her money. But right now..i was thinking, im not happy and not enjoying wasnt that opposing my mom’s effort? After all the mind fucking elaborationg..i realised that im the one that does not appreciate what my mom had done for me.
If i were not to join those classes, i think ill not be as independent as now. I will not have all the confidence to associate and communicate with any kind of peoples. I would not be a person who plays any songs just by listening, paint a painting, scetch my dog, strip dance for hubby kidding, or read song lyrics.
Mom, thank you for enduring my stupidity and childishness. You’ve gave me the best. I love you and im not panicking what kind of mother ill become. But i know, if my kids wanted chinese, piano, violin, art class or dance class..they have a free tutor. Thats me =]
My dad is a very temperate person. Along the way he’s the one who hugs me and kiss my forehead when my mom brush me over..i just do not know how to thank them.

5 months now
October 27th, 2008 -- Posted in yip yapping |

Click here to check out the vid 56secs only tho. Taken from www.ayu.no
Shes burning gorgeous. Unlike others, she doesnt even need to try hard to be sexay. I think she had boob jobs but really it looks freaking real coz fake boobs stands. Wonder how much she spent on those but really.. I LOVE HER!! Flat boobers! get a wacoal today!