Undefined
June 28th, 2010, by belle Posted in emo toto | No Comments »some friends, stay but you know its a good bye.
Some friends, did not say good bye, but u know, its a farewell.
Perhaps there will be many people you address them as a friend, even they do not concern about you.
some.. has left you..eternally.. but, they never say goodbye, they never once leave.
It can be, i missed you too much. Did you really reach for me.. or its just a dream.
Im having trouble telling myself i will be ok. im doubting myself every now and then. I told no one.. not even admitting to myself,
“you are in big trouble”.
2 weeks ago, i went to sleep expecting a nightmare. But  i was sitting beside you. We were laughing. You look happy and you sound happy. We talked alot.. but i dont remember what we actually talked about. All i remember seconds before i know im waking up..
you said “wo xiang xing ni ke yi de” ( i believe you can do it, or i believe in you.)
and im awake. i have so much tears that my pillow is wet…find myself covering my face and cried out loud.
i am thinking.. did you now im in trouble.. are you here to tell me ill be fine. even if im not, ull be here for me?
I asked your brother.. he said.. you did not visit them or any others. im the only one up to date.
Tell me if its me subconsciously missing you too much, or you did really came for me.
..either way.. i thank you. i miss you and again i dint get to say goodbye to you.
you are one true friend.. that is not here physically and yet still care for me.
here..is your favourite song. How i wish.. ull comment in my blog, just like before. One day.. we will meet again.. and i know i probably still wont bid goodbye.
