is a no big deal. and no gifts or whatsoever.

PICTURES

celebrating with him for the 5th time. This year will be different tho

we have got blythe =D

just pimpin.

at zanmai. Eating out is never gonna be the same anymore. We take turns to eat. Take turns to entertain this monster.

ALERT TO ALL PARENTS. IF U EVER WANT TO BUY A BABY CHAIR. PLEASE BUY FROM IKEA. THE ONLY BABY CHAIR THAT KIDS CANT CLIMB. I CAN GUARANTEE THIS.

strolling around after eating. i think blythe had the most fun !

Last month, she cant walk that well yet. This month she dont need me to hold her hands anymore. SEE.. they grow so fast. Im gonna miss her holding my hands very soon from now =(

TOO CUTE. whoever that thinks otherwise, GO FUCK YOURSELF.

a little celebration with my family. =D

i dint expect a cake !

3 of us! i hope next year, blythe will sing me happy birthday. OH seconds ago, she just imitated my phone’s sms alert. DUT DUT DUT. wtf?!

brother, always my bro no matter what ppl say or judge. my only siblings.

On my birthday, i purposely turned off the notification in my facebook. make no sounds no hint. That night at 12am, no one text me. except in fb, i have a friend who remembers. BUT THTS BECAUSE HE BOUGHT ME THIS DOMAIN AND IT NOTIFY HIM THAT ITS TIME TO RENEW OR SOMETHING. sad fuck. i mean me.

I was torn and afraid. i mean last year, i need to silent my phone and spent alot of money replyin. this year none. proves that my social life has gone down to drain.. FML..

but.. well i guess i still have my family with me.. the most important i guess. Whoever that remembers thank you. YOu guys the best =] those that doesnt, its ok im over it. but i know just where i stand in your heart.

overall, its an awesome birthday celebration not because of awesome gifts or surprises like before, but its because blythe is with me. BEST GIFT I COULD EVER HAVE.

battle starts on monday 12pm. My exams.

I dont think i deserve to pass anyway, slacking and watch the whole series of gaki no tsukai. If i do pass, its either my luck (many other’s luck) OR im fucking intelligent. ..fuck it, it must be the luck. You bastards sure wish me fail…. but ive got august to resit you know? but i wont bother to retake if i fail all five subjects.

if i do fail all i agree i deserve it. NOT I DONT WTF?! i deserve to fail for 3 and not 5! i did loads of work on criminal law come on.

Daddy say.. I dint do enough.. Im wasting my time.. he is probably right. I was torn when he said that. but truth hurts right…. but i have the cheeks to say he hurt me in sms. Sorry dad, if i pass this exam ill tell you the truth. but if Yi read this entry OR fucktards read this post, you probably find out pretty soon. if you need to tell my dad this do include ” daddy, i love you nonetheless”.

Today, dad mom blythe and i went for a quick drink. He said, If i fail my exam.. i should resit. honestly, i almost cried on the spot.. WHAT HAVE I DID TO DESERVE DAD LIKE THIS?

i failed a levels few times, i lost counts.  He have faith in me to let me fool around with his money and my youth to learn my lesson. I got straighten up after i got pregnant. ..loads of thanks to blythe.. she dont know how much she meant to me (yeah..probably repeated this for 23746187468176481734 times) S0 i finally passed my a levels and got into my 1st year…

wouldnt say it comes easily..coz i go for class until i was 7 or 8 months pregnant.. drive 45 minutes and pay rm15 for parking EACH FUCKING DAY. And to be carrying myself in that weight is crazy… but it makes me happy. Never in my life i felt so courages. Blythe you are awesome and i love you..despite you shout like nobody’s business now.

got into my 1st year..but so what? Try bring a mother and a student.. ITS MOTHERFUCKINGHARD.

Im not complaining.. but mother in law causes me so much trouble that kinda give up going to classes. But people wouldnt understand this.. “belle? nah just another lazy student”  yap.. try to have a child, a mother in law, a husband and loads of shit throwing at your face when u goto classes and trying to find a slot to study.

1. Mother in law that throws her grandchild to her son and tell him, im out now. Take care of her.

babe, you are 75 yrs old.. you know your daughter in law just went to school about 2 hours ago, that makes her just sat in her class for 1 hour, you decided to tell your son to handle your grandchild which you promised to take care until your daughter in law comes back. IS YOUR SON JOBLESS? no he isnt. So your daughter in law need to rush back to take k of your grandchild and miss her class yet again. Despite you do that, your daughter in law cant be showing face or be upset about it. NICE ONE BABE. I LOVE YOU.

2. At times like this, you get to see awesome lecturers or likewise. There is lecturers who acts like a 6 yrs old kid. That show you stare stare, guling guling eyes, or the face that says “you are gonna fail so bad”

i think : ITS OK, GOT AUGUST. if i fail in august as well. youve pawn me.

Im not justifying the classes i missed. Its definitely my fault for  my incompetence to get things right. But, i work hard as well.

3rd can of coffee (shit tht i wouldnt take unless its a war) .. i miss you, wonder if you thinks of me too. Good night…

LYRICS:

When the rain is blowing in your face,
and the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
to make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
and there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
to make you feel my love.

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet,
but I would never do you wrong.
I’ve known it from the moment that we met,
no doubt in my mind where you belong.

I’d go hungry; I’d go black and blue,
I’d go crawling down the avenue.
No, there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
to make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
and on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
you ain’t seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn’t do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
to make you feel my love

Credit : Lyrics taken from the youtube video above.