I thank my mom. For all i have today =]

but this is a tribute to my babe.

Hey babe,
Just wanna say..thanks for choosing me. You probably wouldnt know how much you meant to me..your mother me, is not good at expressing herself.. but never a day my love for u decrease. I still remember your face. when you saw me for the 1st time. You stop crying once u heard my voice.. right at that moment i know for all my life.. ill try to be there for you.Be a happy child..and make me an average ordinary mother that try her best everyday. I.. love you Blythe HZQ

Live report.

My mother in law is quite normal now. Just like when i am still in a dating status with her son. She is considerate nice and kind.

Before this.. many many things happened. Before she is how she is now, i took the last straw and i fought back when she interrupted conversation of me and sam. Ofcoz shes being very rude and loud and also no doubt telling me off because her son is so perfect.

I said :

“I know what you want to say. That all your daughter in law fail and i am the worse. Anything happen, every series of incident CANNOT BE YOUR SON’S FAULT. It will be your daughter in law. Yea, go ahead and say i am disrespectful because you know well you dont earn any”

to be honest. i am not proud of what i said. But she need to wake up. I am the last remain. She need to know if this continues, its gonna break apart coz i couldnt take anymore of her shit. And i cant held back my honest feelings. She brought back the old series of incident that happened. I defend and i explain. I did everything i could to make her understand she is giving me pain and what she is doing now is gonna ruin a family in a long run(quite immediately)

I can leave her and her denial.  she is just another MIL that will not love her daughter in law as her own child. She is one MIL that will feel better if her son listens to her. We are women.. my friend said, there cant be 2 women in a house. I agree. it work very differently. I am in charge of her son now, taking care or whatsoever, therefore she need to be heard and to be “respect” to feel secure. But sorry.. it doesnt work that way… she proved herself wrong 2 times and if she wants the 3rd.. itl be too easy for her.

I continue to tell her things i kept in the corner of my heart. I remember her face when i told her what i really felt and things that she done which hurts. But obviously she thought im not aware of what she did. She think she is smart..but that is just because i chose to keep quiet and let things slide. So when the truth exploded on her face… she probably cannot really take it.

She said : i dont want to talk to you!
then she left the house for 2-3 days.

We dont talk. especially me. I dont eat the meal she cook, im sure that will make her feel better. I know her and i am lazy to explain here. The ignoring part last about 1 month long. Along the 1 month, i can see she is changing. But i am afraid to be hurt again so i remained quiet and mind my own business. One day, i realised.. we were talking like how we used to.. as in how we talk before i got married with her son.

Today she made me bird nest ginseng chicken essence. She said i need those coz i spend alot of time studying at night instead of sleeping. I feel like im back to 2 years ago.. i am so happy i can cry…

I think.. my guts for fighting for myself.. pays off. The truth that i never imagine myself telling her.. works. Yes.. we are all hurt.. in pain and the wounds might not just heal.. But atleast, after all the crash and error.. we RESET.

Format the memory system and install new one.

I will not ever claim i am a good daughter in law. I am never one. But no doubt.. i never once doubt my love for her. And i think that will overcome many thing.. even the countless shit she had it on my face. We are installing new system.. new memory and watever had happened.. we took it as a lesson.

To all my comrades (hahahahahaha), i dont know if i can be an example.. but try remember this in year head every time you feel your face is blowing off out of proportion.

“one who gives have no regret, one who is sincere is never a sly”

i said this to my friend.. and it works for me until now. It works for anything…

Giving without expecting a return.. it can be the hardest thing. But when you learn to not expect but give out your best.. you will feel great. You are making this world a better place.

I know i do seem like an angry person… but im never one if there is no reason to be angry or upset.

i like how things is going now. For the past few days, im doing spring cleaning on my friend list. I discarded everything i do not need. I talked to my parents, i love my brother, my girl can walk .. and sam and i are working things out. I like how things is calm now.. i was thinking do let this last for a while more.. exam is so soon. DONT JINX ME WTF! shit can come as much as they want after my exam. atleast my brain is taking its break by then.

=D

i dint sleep whole night because i was so excited! although i think i will not enjoy asian country but im extremely excited because im going with cely! its been some time since our last trip together which was 2 years ago!! and really cely told me itl be quite cold. I get to wear what is impossible to be put on in Malaysia =D

captured at 7am.  every time on plane, ill bored and i do think of plane crashing. it doesnt feel good at all. view like this makes my world all better

really sucky experience at the HK’s custom. There were few lady before me and the officer speak cantonese with them. When its my turn, he spoke english with me which i think its odd. I dont know the reason and he looked around and pause for a while. He flipped my passport and asked me

officer : you alone? how many days here?where you stay?

me : yes i am alone. and i am here for 5d4n, ill be staying at Largos Hotel.

he is still not satisfy with my answers and again he asked

officer : *deep voice* really alone come here?

i was agitated and wonder DO I LOOK LIKE ILL JUMP PLANE HERE?! (jump plane means become an illegal immigrant to work at other country)

me : yes i flew here alone but my friend is outside waiting for me. we are meeting here

then he let me off. IM SO SAD!!!!! I LOOKED LIKE IM JUMPING PLANE! T^T and probably coz my passport only shows i been to places very near to Malaysia.. discriminate me *angry*

Largos Hotel is at the end of Nanking street. And i can be damn wrong anyway.

food first!!! and we walked along nathan road to go mido cafe! the  couple told me its a must eat!

mido cafe

inside mido cafe. this is one of my fav picture.  look in the picture, theres a drawing of women sitting right on the place im sitting.

i am salivating as im posting up these pictures. I MISS BEEF BELLY NOODLES!!!!!!! S  O  B !

pictures along nathan road

ran fast after taking this pic. This is a anti corruption department in Hongkong.

after a stroll we head back to largos to unpack. will get ready to other places to shop!

cely and I! i always look dull beside her albeit the fact im younger than her. just cant friggin pose.

our room a mess within seconds

along Nanking street, we are heading to their MTR, underground transit

ticket machine =D i just like it coz its touch screen, there are tonnes of people standing outside the compound of this picture. it so happen to be deserted.

at jordan

this kind of picture. I seen it everywhere. Its like a default to take this when u are at HK MTR

octopus card(also another default picture). one card to any destination. just top up if you ran out of credit. wats best is when you return the card they will return 50hkd. its the deposit. And i really love their train because they have many compartments therefore you will not have the chance to wait for another round. Never happened to us when we are in HK. Unlike msia….its just tragically miserable to compare our public transport with HK or SG.

meet jia hou our lengcai cousin. a hardcore funny fella. hes loaded with lame jokes.

sasa or same concept store like sasa, is position in almost every freaking shop lot you walk by. Cely said, probably every 50 steps you took you’l pass by a branch.. I dont get it!!!! why so many  !  !!

i forgot where we went. i think its tsim tsa jui. Bz walking around and fascinated by clean streets. Even if its packed with people its just clean and very cold!! if only this happens in our country. We went for tea time coz we are looking for toilets. I realised if you are with the right bunch of friends, the torturing journey to look for toilet could be fun. The random talks and laugh.. i missed them

honestly, they are not that good. Pictures can be so deceiving

omg. we are so lovely.

walk into this street and turn to your right you’l find the restaurant we went.

we head to ….. avenue of star next!

so so hai hai ! i somehow feel i must post this picture regardless ill be chopped into pieces. too funny to be put aside.

new world centre and avenue of star is behind this building

fascinating eh.. its like the buildings are alive.

i am dead serious when i said no one beats cely’s posing skill! i look like a insignificant subject in the picture lol

everythings moving. except me =D really like this pic. TQ!

i dont like taking pictures alone. it makes me feel lonely. But really i have photographer with me. WHY NOT oh and i remember my face is numb coz its really windy and chilling. and it smells weird along this area due to the breeze of sea.

that basically ends my 1st day in hongkong. Alot that i see just that it cant be all captured in the tiny frame. and im too busy to take pictures.

last few pictures is taken by hongkiat and they are really nice pictures. thanks for letting me use em

this picture makes me feel like im watching the world goes by and i cant do anything but to just watch. it feels disconnection and lonely

I ought to admit that at first i wasnt that exciting to be in HK coz really.. we speak the same language just slightly different culture. But it turns out im wrong. It is different. will further elaborate in next post.

Cely said i might not feel excited because i dont watch tvb drama. I NOW GET WHAT U MEAN. coz i caught myself telling sam or whoever “eh eh eh i been here leh! its like this this this tat tat” I only feel i relate to hongkong when im watching tvb drama!

I need to thank this couple that offered such an eye opening trip to me. They are my photographer, my tourist and my laugh bag. I really had great time with you guys. (except for breaking my leg)

wait for hk day 2! its disneyland =DDDDDD (that post might take a year long to come by but watever)